I DID IT!

I FINISHED 7 FREAKING MILES! I ran, I jogged, I walked, I felt pain and happiness and so much more, and I DID IT!

When I was done, I was in a state of euphoria. I was so sore and tired, but I wanted to cry with joy. I wanted to shout and hug all the "roid rage" guys at the gym and just go crazy.

I never would have thought even a month ago that I could finish a 7 mile workout. Hell, I wouldn't have thought I could have finished 5 miles at that. I was even afraid that I would get 5.5 miles in, and collapse. Never would I have though I could finish 7 miles, NEVER. I am just in complete awe of myself. Every time I think about what I'm doing, how I'm actually getting healthy and making my life better, I just start crying. I'm just so freaking happy and proud of myself.

Today I was watching a re-run of the Biggest Loser on Bravo while I ate lunch, and it just made me smile and cry (again). Anytime I see people getting healthy and changing their life, I just get so filled with joy.

Even things that feel like setbacks empower me. For example, I received my Team Care runners shirt in the mail today for the marathon. It's a reallly nice shirt, UV protecting and helps with sweating, but its a womens XL. I haven't worn a womens size shirt in years, and I wear a guys XL, and even that can be tight at times. I just laughed, actually put the shirt on, and low and behold, it actually went on my body! Didn't fit, but I just smiled, because I know that it will fit in the future, that it's a goal to reach and something that I know I'll conquer.

I've done so much in the past few months that I never would have thought I could have done. I've ran more than a 10k run, I've ran 59.56 miles total to date, and I've gained so much self love and confidence that I've been missing in my life.

I still have a long way to go, but I know that my life is already worth so much more, and I'll only continue to grow with every mile I run.